Unravelling Yarn

So i have finally accepted that I have bitten of more then I can chew and I am wondering why I did it. Was it because I love what I study and wanted access to more knowledge or was it because I wanted to prove that I could do it or was it to prove that I was smart or was it to impress someone who will never be impressed with me?

Gosh am I that messed up? How can I do this to myself without knowing why!! What is wrong with me? Hmm I feel like slowly unravelling yarn from an old sweater that have been used too long, too often. I just hope that I can pull myself together in time to keep my grades up. If not I will see my worst nightmare come to reality. I WILL FAIL! And I dont know how to do that,I may do poorly but I do not fail. I just need a hug and someone to tell me that what I am doing is amazing and that they love me so very much.

So know what I need to do is find my center and let it all flow. Hopefully it will flow soon because tutorials and termpapers wait for noone.But I am strotng and I shall survive or die trying!