Been a while...

I've been sooooooo busy I havent had time to blog is sooooooo long. Hmmm the new stuff... Well I had the biggest scare of my life this week. I thought I was having a relapse and honest to God I was soooo scared it wasnt funny. I have admitted to myself that I would not have been able to cope with losing my life a second time. Not after all the work I have put into myself for me to be where I am right now. I would have given up this time. I honestly admit that much to myself. But I also found out that I have some amazing friends who really do care about me. And even though they know nothing about this blog I want to thank them from the depths of my heart for the support that they showed to me in my moments of despair. Now onto the insignificant things that I have not be able to update on. Reg and I are no longer friends and he has caused a split in the group. But I dont really care. They are, I now realize, children and I cannot help but accept that now. I was trying to bestow up them traits of maturity more for my sake than their own. It was so I could feel comfortable around them since they are not from my age group. I really do miss friends my age and I have become a bit juvenile in my behaviour, mannerisms and dispostion. M and G are really godsends to help salvage my adulthood.