Dying....

He broke my heart, but it is ok... I maybe dying now but like a phoenix I will rise out of the ashes of my destruction, ready to live again more vibrant than ever before. But I cannot help but want to cry. I feel so used, so cheap and to think I was willing to give it up all for him. My Family... My inheritance..... all of it. Well I hope that he is happy. I never want to speak to him ever again. The joy I once felt is now drained out of me. What can I do now but hide my pain from the world. I cannot show them how much I want to die!!!!! I will not show them how deeply I have been hurt!!! I cannot do that !!!!!!! They have all been waiting to see me fail to see me suffer. I will suffer in private!!! My pain, loss and humiliation will not be made a public spectacle of!!!!!
Never!!!! Never!!!! Never!!!!!1