I'll Admit it!!!!

I Love you!!! I admit it!! But I was dumb I let you go!! And I dont think that we will ever be again. I wish you would love me but now you wont not ever again. I will miss you. Caian I love you too bad I will never be able to tell you. Good bye my love, my one, my only, my heart's blood.

I just dont know anymore!

I know that I should be a decisive person but I am just not too sure how to be. I know that sounds stupid but I just cant seem to help it!!!!! How can I stand up to him if I am so afraid to lose him? I am really not the preson I used to be. I have become weaker and I dont know when it happened but what I do know id that it needs to change and I need to find myself in order to make that change a reality.