Ever wonder?

Have you ever wondered why somethings happen? Ever wonder why you met this person now and not sooner? Ever wonder if you will ever meet them again after they have moved out of your life and into the wide world? Ever wonder if they will get married and settle down, if their spouse will make them happy and if they ever think about you?
I think i wonder entirely too much................
But I really cant help but wonder!

ATTENTION!!!!!!!!!1

Hey I just remembered that I have to say that my birthday is on friday!!!! Hurray!!! Dont know why I am so damn happy!! I have a bunch of papers due is the next bit of the month. I am sooooo tired of typing.... I swear this university is trying to mkae me chop my hand off..... I hate typing now.... grrrrrrrrr So I guess I will not be doing anything for my birthday!!!!!!!! Oh Well!!!!!

Been a while...

I've been sooooooo busy I havent had time to blog is sooooooo long. Hmmm the new stuff... Well I had the biggest scare of my life this week. I thought I was having a relapse and honest to God I was soooo scared it wasnt funny. I have admitted to myself that I would not have been able to cope with losing my life a second time. Not after all the work I have put into myself for me to be where I am right now. I would have given up this time. I honestly admit that much to myself. But I also found out that I have some amazing friends who really do care about me. And even though they know nothing about this blog I want to thank them from the depths of my heart for the support that they showed to me in my moments of despair. Now onto the insignificant things that I have not be able to update on. Reg and I are no longer friends and he has caused a split in the group. But I dont really care. They are, I now realize, children and I cannot help but accept that now. I was trying to bestow up them traits of maturity more for my sake than their own. It was so I could feel comfortable around them since they are not from my age group. I really do miss friends my age and I have become a bit juvenile in my behaviour, mannerisms and dispostion. M and G are really godsends to help salvage my adulthood.